I (again)

Full bags of eyes

Release salty water 

Drinks crack and break

The head spins in shades

I breathe but don't wanna

I sing but don't wanna

I smile but don't wanna

I cry but don't wanna

The tears, the tears

They drop, they drop

The floor, the floor

They flood, they flood

Dandy boy takes me there

Leaves me there

Can't get out when I want

But do when it falls apart

I need it to be

I breathe it to be

I am distant from me

I am close from him

The heart, the heart

It pumps, it pumps

The clock, the clock

It tics, it tics

Why do I have to be sad

To be able to write?

Why can't I be happy 

To put down joyful words?

I wonder if you care

I wonder if you can

I wonder if you would

I wonder if you will

It reads, it reads

It hugs, it hugs

It reads, it reads

It ignores, it ignores

Seems as I am again lost

In words that sing

That ding

In my mind

I breathe

I sing

I smile

I cry

The words, the words

The head, the head

It swims, it swims

It flys, it flys